You'll be traumatized for life

Nature’s Highlights:

This year nature has decided to bless us with a beautiful blanket of snow before the month of April, which is amazing.

What nature taught me this week is this:

Dress appropriately for your weather.

Vaslui, Romania, 7/12/2023

(btw, this week’s entry is truly amazing, I’m really proud of it. I suggest you keep on reading)

When I was around 14-15 years old, I saw a post on the internet talking about how:

“Our minds are never gonna be the same after being traumatized”

Saying that your mind will basically go to a lower state, that you’re never gonna recover from.

From the instant I saw that, I called bullshit on those mfers,

Because I knew how trauma wasn’t what “destroyed my mind”, but what created and nourished it.

Two years later, I still cannot agree with that statement.

But I can admit it comes from a truth.

The reality is:

Yes, our minds will never be the same after being traumatized, that’s true.

But that’s not something that should worry us. It’s something that should make us tremble with joy.

Of course your mind won’t be the same after trauma,

Because it’s the greatest catalyst to change and development ever known to man.

Trauma isn’t this “thing” that happens that ultimately wreaks havoc on our lives and makes us mentally deranged.

It can, of course, lead to that.

But between trauma and a miserable life is where you stand.

You have the POWER to DECIDE:

“What will my trauma transform into?”

We’re the ones manning the ships of our minds, we’re the ones in control of them,

No matter what other bullshit you may hear on the internet.

Of course, our actions are dictated by our past, but that stands true for as long as you’re not aware of it.

Once you’re able to stop for a second, to look inward and see why the fuck you are who you are,

Then your past starts having less, and less control on you.

Until, it ultimately…sticks around.

You thought I was gonna say “leaves” or some shit like that, didn’t you? 😄

Well, I’m sorry to tell you, but…

Trauma never leaves your soul.

I don’t think there is any amount of work you can do with, or on yourself to change this outcome.

But that’s not the end of the world.

Think of that traumatized part of yourself as the child you were when it happened.

At first, when you are that child,

You’re there, alone, unprotected, screaming from the top of your lungs that you need saving.

But after all the work you put in, you look back at that child within yourself, and you notice something:

He’s not alone anymore.

You’re there with him, you’re there to take care of and protect him.

And while he still may cry, or feel bad at times, he’s gonna end up snuggling into you, knowing that he is safe.

Truth is, we can never eliminate this child from our lives,

And we shouldn’t either.

I don’t want to reach 80 years old and not be able to cry while reminiscing about the past.

Nowadays, we think tears are such an ugly thing,

And while I am a very ugly crier, I’ll admit, crying about my past has started to shed tears of not only pain, but of joy.

I may be crying of hurt, but my mouth is smiling with happiness.

So whilst it’s impossible to truly “escape” your traumas, that shouldn’t even be the goal.

The goal is to be so content with the little child that resides inside of you, that you never want him to go away.

Because, like it or not, he’s still a part of you.

So go and help him out, protect him.

Because he needs you.

I appreciate you guys reading so far (aka pretty thanks),

I hope you managed to get something out of this - if not, then just READ IT AGAIN. :))))

I wish you all an amazing week ahead of you, aaaaanddddd keep on growing <3.

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