Nature’s highlights:

This week I took one of the most beautiful photos I’ve ever taken, and it was almost by accident:

A week ago, I wrote a Tweet saying this:

But, like it is with everything in life, there’s a different side of the coin to this saying.

This Monday, I had to complete an essay for the national exam I’m gonna be taking at the end of the year.

And I SUCKED. (hard)

I sat down to write, already beating my mind with the idea that I wouldn’t be able to do it.

I start writing, but at the exact moment I stop copying my text from the web, I’m blank.

I get enraged and I smack my desk just mildly enough so that I wouldn’t have to hear my mom scolding me.

I take a breather, I ask myself what’s going on, and I press forward.

A few minutes go by, and even though I now started writing, I made a mistake - had to delete half a line.

Yet again, I felt like snapping, I realized this shit isn’t ok, something’s wrong and I needed to take care of it.

So I took a break.

After returning, I sat back down at my desk, who’s probably already scared of me from all the essays and League of Legends games.

And I started writing again.

It didn’t matter how much I breathed, or how much I was thinking it through,

This rage wouldn’t leave me alone.

Eventually, I do the only thing I know will numb my feelings -Jerk off.

I’m not proud of it either, trust me.

But in a weird and twisted way, until I finished my essay, it helped.

It allowed me to sit on my bed, take a deep breath, and ask myself:

“Ok, what the fuck is going on?!”

I didn’t realize the whole story back then,

But my anger and disappointment had nothing to do with that essay.

It had, however, everything to do with the deep-rooted feelings of insufficiency I had mustered all throughout my childhood.

Even when we don't realize it, our minds are constantly processing the world around us, seeking meaning in every word, action, and circumstance

That’s why you may get angry, or sad, for completely irrational reasons.

Because, in your mind, everything makes sense.

Every single word, every single action, every single circumstance has a meaning.

And the only way to understand this meaning is to look for the answer deep within yourself.

As I have seen in my life,

There is no better tool than introspection when it comes to mental health.

Many disagree with me on this,

But I believe that knowing truly is half the battle, especially when it comes to “irrational responses”.

So next time some fucker decides to cut you off in traffic, and you start screaming curses from your lungs,

Take a second and ask yourself:

“Why did I get angry? What did that mean for me? What’s going on in my life right now?”

And with enough practice, I’m sure you’ll find the answer.

Love you guys (have an amazing week). <3

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